As a young woman, I was full of...myself. Adolescent ego centrism was a perfect fit.
I went to a small high school and participated in everything. I was in drama, speech, music, sports, student council, academic clubs, etc. I was busy all week and every weekend. I liked to be in charge and boss others. Vice president of this. Captain of that. Co-chair of that too. I arranged things and had ideas and wanted to be in charge.
I spoke up - loudly - in class and at meetings. I had an opinion and liked to share it.
I entertained thoughts of a political career as an adult. What fun it would be to boss around the masses.
As a young adult I chose a career path in social work. I liked action, service, and helping others. Later deciding that education would be a perfect fit.
Here I am, 13 years out of high school and surprised sometimes to think of the young person I once was. I find myself a much quieter adult. Much happier to work behind the scenes, taking directions from others. I don't like to plan things. I am not an organizer.
I will still speak my mind on certain topics that I feel strongly about. But I am not an activist, I do not start things. I am happy to volunteer to help with things that others are organizing, but I do not jump to be the chairperson of anything.
In a crowd, say at church, I find myself sitting quietly while the noise hums around me. An introvert as opposed to extra. Content to sit back and watch others chatting and networking. I've tried more than once to figure out when the switch was turned off.
I think life has sucked the leader right out of me. I have yet to decide how I feel about that.
Eighteen and planning to change the world!