The cyclical nature of my life is really starting to show right here on my blog.
I want to write a whiny August post about how tired I am and how hard my job is and how I just need to power through and I know I will feel better in a week or two.
Instead I went and read my August archives from the last couple of years and realize it's just part of the life I lead. Every year I feel this way, regardless of how much stress there is (this year there is extra, let me tell you...new co-teachers, student teacher, new classroom, seven new students, new stitches in my finger from an unfortunate kitchen accident, new wrinkles on my face and a new zen perspective that keeps me from falling right over...) and it passes in a bit.
Right now life is a blur. We are all well and things are fine. It's just a little fuzzy from the dizzy rush that seems to be occurring.
All in all. . . life is good. September and October are my favorite months of the year. We are approaching a season change that makes me very happy.
I just need to get through the week. And next week.
And maybe even the next.
Then I can breathe.
Then I can see clearly.
For now. It's survival mode.
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Since we go back to school after Labour Day, this time of year (for you) always throws me a bit.
You will be fine of course, but I am sure in this moment it feels all a little much. You are a great teacher and this year will probably bring many great new teaching moments that you will be eager to share with us.
I've sensed you feel low, or disconnected--if it helps, I feel that same way this time of the year. I think there's something to how cyclical our jobs are--sometimes the transitions are difficult.
I hope things even out--have a great weekend!
I am a teacher also. I feel the same way. We are very lucky to have the summers off, but it's hard to go back and get back into the routine-especially with our children. This week was a blur for me and I feel the same about just getting through the next few. We will make it--we always do. But we have great jobs!
I remember my mom saying to me when my children were young (5, 3 1/2 & 2) and I was upset because I couldn't get things done and it made me disappointed in my performance as a mother, wife, homemaker. She said, "just sit down and write down what all you do in a day and how much time it takes, it's impossible to get it all done" years later I heard a young mother say, "I didn't get it done today and that's why God made tomorrow." I loved that. Young mothers are very hard on themselves. Remember that saying- "Every evening before I go to bed I turn my worries over to God. He's going to be up all night anyway." I love that. Enjoy your new adventures this year.
I'm OVER summer. Really. This week I was thinking, "I can't wait for school." Then I realized I HOMESCHOOL!!!! So we start again on Monday. Yippee. I love how the autumn just seems fraught w/ promise! And new clothes!
Well, Subspace Beacon lives in a part of the continent that had record-breaking heat this year.
My part had record-breaking rain, so I'm not quite done with summer yet, and actually, because of the weird labour day timing, I don't actually teach my first class until (ducks in anticipation of you throwing something at me) ** September 14 **.
Still, I am often amazed at the cyclical nature of my own moods, how they're so seasonal, and, yes, how it's all right there in the blog.
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