Thursday, August 13, 2009

I Really Want to Complain

The cyclical nature of my life is really starting to show right here on my blog.

I want to write a whiny August post about how tired I am and how hard my job is and how I just need to power through and I know I will feel better in a week or two.

Instead I went and read my August archives from the last couple of years and realize it's just part of the life I lead. Every year I feel this way, regardless of how much stress there is (this year there is extra, let me tell co-teachers, student teacher, new classroom, seven new students, new stitches in my finger from an unfortunate kitchen accident, new wrinkles on my face and a new zen perspective that keeps me from falling right over...) and it passes in a bit.

Right now life is a blur. We are all well and things are fine. It's just a little fuzzy from the dizzy rush that seems to be occurring.

All in all. . . life is good. September and October are my favorite months of the year. We are approaching a season change that makes me very happy.

I just need to get through the week. And next week.
And maybe even the next.

Then I can breathe.
Then I can see clearly.

For now. It's survival mode.


Jenifer said...

Since we go back to school after Labour Day, this time of year (for you) always throws me a bit.

You will be fine of course, but I am sure in this moment it feels all a little much. You are a great teacher and this year will probably bring many great new teaching moments that you will be eager to share with us.

Aliki2006 said...

I've sensed you feel low, or disconnected--if it helps, I feel that same way this time of the year. I think there's something to how cyclical our jobs are--sometimes the transitions are difficult.

I hope things even out--have a great weekend!

Jen said...

I am a teacher also. I feel the same way. We are very lucky to have the summers off, but it's hard to go back and get back into the routine-especially with our children. This week was a blur for me and I feel the same about just getting through the next few. We will make it--we always do. But we have great jobs!

Mama said...

I remember my mom saying to me when my children were young (5, 3 1/2 & 2) and I was upset because I couldn't get things done and it made me disappointed in my performance as a mother, wife, homemaker. She said, "just sit down and write down what all you do in a day and how much time it takes, it's impossible to get it all done" years later I heard a young mother say, "I didn't get it done today and that's why God made tomorrow." I loved that. Young mothers are very hard on themselves. Remember that saying- "Every evening before I go to bed I turn my worries over to God. He's going to be up all night anyway." I love that. Enjoy your new adventures this year.

Subspace Beacon said...

I'm OVER summer. Really. This week I was thinking, "I can't wait for school." Then I realized I HOMESCHOOL!!!! So we start again on Monday. Yippee. I love how the autumn just seems fraught w/ promise! And new clothes!

Mimi said...

Well, Subspace Beacon lives in a part of the continent that had record-breaking heat this year.

My part had record-breaking rain, so I'm not quite done with summer yet, and actually, because of the weird labour day timing, I don't actually teach my first class until (ducks in anticipation of you throwing something at me) ** September 14 **.

Still, I am often amazed at the cyclical nature of my own moods, how they're so seasonal, and, yes, how it's all right there in the blog.