Sunday, January 13, 2008

Choked Up

A trip back to my hometown for the first time in four months, coupled with a hometown benefit for my nephew, has left me all emotional and tired. Weepy and worn.

I'd love to write about small towns and my hometown and the beauty of living in one where you've lived your whole life (which I did not do, but my brother and his wife have done). I'd love to write about my dad's boss, who's a notorious tight you-know-what, who gave a tremendous show of support today that left my dad in tears. I'd love to write about standing in an old gym, watching the line of people, all there to support the family you love so much. And my mom, who didn't come so she could sit with my nephew, who's in isolation. And how everyone asked about her and were so proud of how much support one woman can provide. A true Matriarch. About how a hug from an old friend left us both in a puddle of tears. How life can be cruel and beautiful all at the same time.

About how one little boy can bring a town full of people to their knees. Praying that he'll be okay. Knowing that he will. I'd also write about how much my nephew kicks ass. How cool he is. How beautiful.

I'd write about it all, if there were words.

I'll be back.
Just need a few.

12 comments:

Aliki2006 said...

Glad your back--glad to hear about such a town--a place where people still matter and they're not afraid to show it.

Jenifer said...

It goes without saying that you and your nephew are in my thoughts and prayers.

What a wonderful thing the community did, it restores your faith and renews your spirit.

Beck said...

Life is such a bittersweet thing, isn't it? So hard and so lovely.

Twinny said...

It was wonderful to witness OM. I hope to hear from family what the final tally was for the fundraiser; not because I'm interested in money, but because I love seeing how generous our small communities can be. . .

nikkis30by30 said...

**sniff**

That's all I have to say.

Oh.... and....

I LOVE YOU!!

LoriAnn said...

Blessings - they come in all sizes and shapes, all manner and matter. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and especially your nephew - who is kicking ass and taking names!

Oh, The Joys said...

Hey there friend. This sounds hard. Good in many ways, but hard too.I'm thinking about you.

jen said...

oh, what you must be going through, the peaks and the valleys both. take good care.

Don Mills Diva said...

I am a very recent reader but my you have a beautiful way with words. I look forward to reading more.

Jenn said...

The words you cannot find?

I hear them.

Thinking of you.

Mimi said...

This sounds beautiful and moving and hard and draining all at once. I'm sorry things are so tough.

Michelle said...

I think you found the words...very moving...still praying for your nephew too.