Sunday, January 15, 2012


Today I saw a young couple in church passing their baby girl between them. They were bouncing her, snuggling her, keeping her happy the way that you do with a seven-month old in church.

Could I remember my baby girl that way? Hmmmm...

At two months?

How about two years?!

It's silly, but I just felt so strange in that moment. Oh my gosh! Could I forget? Forget what it felt like to hold that baby?

She woke every night to nurse, until she was seven months old. I remember feeling surprised by how much I didn't mind. I enjoyed that dark, quiet time together. She was all mine and I was the only one in the world who could give her what she needed in that moment. Egotistic for sure. But it sure was great. Rocking her in the dark, making sure she knew I was always there.

Tonight we started reading a BOOK. After several moody mood swings this weekend and me telling her that we are sure to be in for more of the same over the next few (let's face it, TEN) years...I decided to get out the book. We'll read it together, or not, if she changes her mind. We just started tonight. It will tell her about hygiene and puberty, in ways that I may not be able to do. It said that girls experience these changes from age 8-13, I was shocked that she's in the age range. I thought I was so ahead of the game. Turns out, we're just in time.

I'm glad to be able to go through this time with her. But I know that a lot of it she'll do on her own. I'm not all she needs any more. I haven't been for a long time.

It's fine. Really.
I just had forgotten that it was different once.



Jenifer said...

Ahhhhh heart is ripping open. We have that book and I think it is awesome, Papoosie Girl (just turned 11) reads it all the time and I remember when I bought it I thought I had YEARS before we would be reading it.

Now I guess it is time for me to start reading it with Rosebud who turned 8 in September.

About the baby in church, sometimes I forget that my baby is nearly 3...I still want to bounce in her in my arms.

perrie said...

WE have that book, too. I've been debating when to give it to T., who just turned 8.

perrie said...

Me up there, Alissa!

Mimi in the Midwest said...

I had to recall a time about 20 years ago when I had "the talk" with the girls. I tried to be very general and used a book I'd gotten someplace. When I was all done I asked if they had any questions and one of them (or both, as is typical of those two) said, "But you and Dad don't do that, right?" I can't remember what I said but I'm sure it damaged them for life...... I'll have to ask them sometime how/if they remember that "talk". Maybe I'll just leave it alone.

Nan | Wrath Of Mom said...

Mimi in the Midwest's story made me cackle with laughter. Oh, dear.

Is there a similar title for boys? I need to buy one. FOR MY HUSBAND TO READ TO OUR SONS. Because, I'm totally going to pass the buck on that one.