Addiction [uh-dik-shuhn] -noun
1. the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.
When I was 21-22, I spent many a wild weekend out with girlfriends "getting hammered". Binge drinking. Thurs-Sun, that was what we did. Out for the night, sleep in in the morning. McDonalds greasy breakfast and HiC Orange were my cure for a headache and hangover. I didn't do this every weekend, but I have many crazy memories of being out with my friends. And when we went out, I drank. And when we drank, I liked to smoke cigarettes. I loved cigarettes! By now, it's hard to imagine. I haven't had a cigarette in a couple of years. But back then, I was a weekend smoker.
I never had to "quit smoking". I just didn't smoke anymore. I didn't crave it. I didn't really even think about it. Every once in a while, I'd be out and have a cigarette with a friend. I also would smoke when I was back home, because my whole family smoked.
Now I've been a nonsmoker for 4 years. I guess I may have smoked a few cigarettes when out after Bee was born. But I haven't since having Buddy. I don't plan to ever again. I consider myself lucky that I didn't get addicted. Really lucky.
I have a cousin who's two weeks younger than me who's in for the fight of her life right now. She has watched her grandmother struggle with lung cancer and doesn't want to walk that same road. She's quitting smoking and I'm so proud of her! My sister quit smoking a year and a half ago and hasn't smoked since. It is possible, it's just so hard.
But I do have my own addictions. How about blogging? Anybody? Anybody? Or how about craving food when you're not hungry? I do that a lot. I truly believe I have a food addiction, which thankfully has only left me on the chubby side, rather than bed ridden. I'm working on it though, because I want to stop eating for emotional reasons. The heart of my own food addiction.
I've often wondered, and I know there is much scientific research that I could pore over, about how some people get so addicted that they can't stop. And some people don't. I've engaged in binge drinking, smoking, and probably have an active food addiction. Yet I am not an alcoholic, a smoker, or morbidly obese. What makes the difference? And keeps a person from going over the edge? I'm curious. What do you think?